Train Wreck

Feeling like a train wreck
No control
Just shaking violently
Vibration
The digust of a body that can't stand still
My surroundings
Bearing weight upon withering shoulders
Somehow instills a will to continue breathing
With lungs
Somewhat undecided
On their continuation of service
Unstable
Fragile
Looking for Excuses
To mirror the sun's movement across the sky
So I reach out for voices
A friendly record store clerk
The guided wire of a telephone
The woman on the other end laughing lovely
Audible sounds of security
As I peer over the cliff of sanity
Looking down ocassionly
The permanance of termination
Self conceptualization
Searching for a reason to live
Something desired
To write about
while living a life of interior imagination
Words
Moods and moments
Pass freely
Regrettably
Sailing away
To be soon forgotten
I shake writing
The combonation of no sleep
Joy and realization that life exists
The harden memories
Passionate frames
Abandoned barriers
And cafe style pondering
Behind a removable glass cage
The experience of raw emotion
Is what I wrestle with
It comes bearing the gifts of enlightenment
While leaving behind
The weight of the world
True gravity
Immobility
Frozen
Captive in space
Heart beats louder
Blood fills my ears
I try to scream
But silence fills the skies life a void
Empty
Desolate
No comfort
Just the hope of survival
Tomorrow
And the opportunity to do it again